Today is The Day!

Today is the day, let's think about that. Let's think about how often those simple words are spoken, how much they mean, how little. Every day is the day for something: a new friend, a new emotion, ideas, smiles, tears anything.
Today, today is the day that I reinvent myself. No, not something noticable, no I won't give up (most of you think I will though) I will keep going, and to me that is my biggest accomplishment for myself.

I'm a teenager, and a teenager goes through difficult things... Yeah, yeah, yeah. The point is, that is me, that is my friend, that is anyone. And there are times when I completely loose hope in the human species, the times when I can't see darkness everything is happy and free, the times when things hurt, this anger, things accumulate! But the point is, I will get better. I will be happy and I will spread my happiness.

Music is my spree,
My outlet and my ocean,
It's the difference between light and day,
The difference between black and grey.

Music is the reason that I can be myself,
The reason that I want to keep running.
When everything is crushed,
It's the day inside my head when my emotions are never rushed.

It's the time for simple sources,
And theres no more need to cry.
For inspiration comes from every dress on,
That you try.

For all I'm trying to say is that,
The music helps us all.
When bullys slap us, call us names,
Or just when we need to smile.

There, that's the only way I know how to thank every single person that helps me every day, with their smiles, and their hopes or dreams, or just talking to me about random things. When I need to smile I have everyone to turn to, eveyone to comfort me and everyone to dial. Like I said before, this is the only way to start, to end a confrontation, or just begin pushing the cart.
The cart of many emotions, the cart of memories and books, random playlists and random instruments all crammed into it.

This is my thankyou letter to every single person, every musician, every person... Everyone!

Love,
Emily <3
Thankyou.

I've waited all day to see the look on you face.

Double sorry.
Life has taken over. Music has taken over. Writing has taken over. But I love it all.
Did you know that I love boys, I love living, and I love my friends. (Broken sentences... What fun?!)
Okay, let's start with boys...
There's one I do love, we've made vows to eachother, it's quite grand. 'Cause he lives quite a distance away from me, I told him we'd go to Paris and he could propose to me under the Eiffle Tower. It was lovely. He's so flippn' perfect, he's helped kept me happy on my down days, and always makes me smile. But, I don't want to date over long distances. We're going to see each other though.

Now onto life...
Busyiness take up our life, atleast that's what my mentor said at my bible study. And it's true, so true. I haven't had time to just hang, stuck in the colours of a moment, it's just go go go, instead of colours it's just, everything turning into versions of busy. I must admit, I've enjoyed every minute, I'm a hectic person, but I'm delicious that way.

I'm going to start blogging every week. I vow.

You looked pretty old yesterday.

Rejected does anyone else feel like that. Actually I really don't feel rejected. Only creative that is getting outletted with me feeling horrble.
I'm going to get back into acting!
I hope people will support that? I've been thinking about it quite a bit lately. I think because I've been seeing many brilliant indie films lately and I want to be apart of something like that.
I bet I sound ultra lame, but I just need to do something I can start doing right this second. BLAH! I just want to scream desparataly!

Today I saw the movie JUNO! I strongly advise everyone to go see it!
I was so fabulous, Michael Cera was so adorable in it. And we all know how much that I adore Ellen Page. <3

I'm so angry! GAH!
I'm yet again babysitting my younger brother and sister, they are being horrible. I've cried so many times while looking after them. They scream and fight and I just can't handle it.
Like that: My brother just told my sister "Hey, Claire you're almost as stupid as Kelly" And I just can't stand things at the moment! D:
And he won't even get her a bowl for cereal! I feel so freakn' angry it's INSANE!
I've decided I'm going to go write now, some song or poem or something of that sort. Maybe even getting some more of my novel done.

Sing a LOVE song <3

Golly gee it's been a long week. A little horrible. I know, I know, life isn't all cake and ice-cream, but still sometimes it's just a little to... GAH D:

I don't overly have anything to blog about today seeing as I only blogged about three days ago. But...

I'M BUYING A GUITAR! Actually, for my brithday I'm asking for a guitar, maybe if I can get my parents to pay for some of it I'd be HAPPY!
But, I know that I've said I was going to buy a guitar about a zillion times in the past. :D

Fish!
My brother has killed his fish, it was actually quite sad. I just don't like animal's dying, even if they are fish.. And he also had a frog that died.

Bored out of '08

I'm bored; so desperataly. So I know it's later but I'm going to name my top ten books and Cds of 2007.

Books Please note; I don't think many of these books came out in '07. And not in any particular order.
1. Boy Meets Boy
2. Eclipse
3. Nick & Norahs Infinite Playlist
4. Tell Me What You See
5. The Vampire Lestat
6. Magic City
7. So Yesterday
8. Neon Bible
9. A Confederency Of Dunces
10. The Center Of The World

CDs Please note; these are not in any particular order and may not have come out in '07
1. The Rocket Summer; Do You Feel
2. All Time Low; So Wrong It's Right
3. A Dropdead Star; It's Not Jacket Weather Anymore
4. Bright Eyes; Cassadaga
5. Cartel; Cartel
6. The Arcade Fire; Neon Bible
7. Kate Nash; Made Of Bricks
8. Backseat Goodbye; Good Morning Sunshine
9. Anything by Jummy Inglish, he doesn't have an album yet :D
10. The Drama Escort; Doesn't have an almub either, a couple EPs though.

So there it is. My list of things you should read or buy or listen to or whatever.

Look at the BRIGHT side of life. "HAHA says I, the bright side?"

Did anyone come to the conclusion that school is yeat again starting in excactly FIVE says!
Wow, some holidays do go quickly. The only thing that I am excited about is after the holiday we're starting on our yearbook and I've been told I'm writing it and helping with photography and the other thing I'm excited about is I'm taking that gifted enrichment test, possibly most definataly getting much more difficult work, did anyone ever have that happen. My opinion is that the level of curriculum for a certain grade level has gone down extremely far, a little disturbing.
I have two things that I must get off my chest.
1. The most disappointing thing that has ever happened to me is when my friend and I were at Sears because her dad was buying a Christmas gift and we were running around laughing, having the time of our lives and sitting and lying on every single piece of furniture that there was. Everyone know those TEMPREPETIC Nasa memory fome beds? Well, my friend and I saw one and I went crazy, HAR HAR. But I went up to it smiling my eyes huge as dinner plates, I was so excited about that bed I've been watching infomercials ago. And I lay down on it biding my time until I'm lying flat on my back, and then it hits me, that silly bed IS THE MOST UNCOMFORTABLE thing I've ever had the displeasure of lying on! I spring up off the bed and look at my friend looking shocked, and tell her that that was the most disappointing thing that has ever happened to me, I have one lesson for you children... DO NOT TRUST INFOMERCIALS they tell lies to sadden small girls. :(

2. That CDs will soon not be sold, my guess is that in the next ten years CDs will be extinct. We need to fight back people, rise up against the corporations of portoble music devices, yes they're convenient, but remember when records we the thing, well what happened to those? Now my dad has a whole zillion of them and can't play them, wait maybe he still has his turntable. But anyway, rise up and strike back, you know you're in trouble when you're grandparents start to use Facebook, wait wrong comparision, when they start using iPODS against their daughters wished I may add. I have found one person who is as disappointed about this as I am. =0

Okay, that may be my blog for tonight, how was it? Better then some of my others I think.
Want to know that most lovliest New Years was last night, I stayed up till 2:00 watching this lovely TV show from the early '90's. It was brilliant. Although my friend and I have a whole New Years planned out for next year, we'll rock it in to a song by Tokyo Police Club, it has something abou 2009 in it. I decided that last year when we tried to rock out to in in 2007, it just wasn't right. So we changed the song to something by Greenday I think, maybe Billy Talent, wait it was Billy Talent.
*This is Emily thinking really hard about something* Okay, I just thought about how much my music/style/everything tastes have changed SO much since last year!

This is my heart to you?!

Well, hello. New blog and everything, I think I speezed everything out of my last one. I'll have to get this one poular. So, since this is is a new blog and a new year... almost. I'll have to put my New Years resolutions, or atleast try. ;)

1. Get better and French, and maybe actually pay attention in French class. [I try, really I do.]
2. Get more descriptive when I write.
3. Get much 'more' better at playing violin, also try and learn guitar [Kapri I need your help!]
4. Read more books, don't listen to Dylan just because he's never picked up anything more then a comic book.
5. Eat healthier
6. Excersise dailyer.
7. Get my criminal record checked. LOLZ [this one is for something I do, I have to get it checked to be a part of it.]
8. Get better at photography, people tell me I'm good, but I need to satisfy what I think is good.
9. Get some better make-up that I'm not allergic to.
10. Become more aware of everything, yes yes the activist talking. LOLZ



Okay, there those are my big resolutions, especially the last one. I know that I'm quite aware of the world, and my opinions about it, but I need to become more aware get more involved in certain organizations I really support e.g; To Write Love On Her Arms, Free The Children, Invisible Children etc etc..

So there it is, my first blog. It wasn't really anything, just a little summn' summn' so now and forever the child is signing off, har har I know.